CHAPTER 9
Eternal River of Life
Everything flows. This is one of the simplest properties of reality. A human appears stable, yet in truth is a process in motion. The image of a river becomes one of the most precise ways to describe life. A river never repeats itself. The water changes, yet the movement continues. Life unfolds in the same way.
After several early psychedelic experiences, my friends and I—artists, people tuned to the same frequency—began to notice something unusual. Life does not simply move. It flows, and we move within that flow.
At times this becomes especially visible in the city. It is common to say that people walk through the streets, but a closer look reveals something different. Movement resembles a current. The body is largely composed of water. It comes from water, depends on it, and constantly interacts with it. Even the food that sustains life is inseparable from it. If the pace of a large city could be accelerated, it would resemble streams of energy moving through its structure—people, cars, light, information.
Even what appears solid is in constant change. A wall gathers time, cracks, shifts, and eventually collapses. To navigate this instability, humans construct systems—meanings, structures, identities—to create a sense of ground within continuous movement.
Artists sometimes begin to notice these currents earlier than others.
For a long time, I studied the work of Vincent van Gogh and began to see something unusual. His paintings carry motion. He spent long periods in nature and learned to perceive its internal dynamics—the spiraling of the sky, the movement embedded in the landscape. These forms do not feel invented. They feel observed.
This becomes especially visible in "The Starry Night" & in many other Van Gogh's paintings.
At one point, I came across visualizations of ocean currents created by NASA. The patterns were strikingly similar—vast spirals moving across the surface of the planet. In that moment, it became clear that these forms are not limited to painting. They exist in nature. The same movement repeats at different scales.
If life is understood as a river, certain things become easier to grasp. Swimming against a strong current quickly leads to exhaustion. Moving with it allows the current to carry you.
A person does not simply move through the river of life. A person is part of that movement. The sense of separation is temporary. The flow was always there.
Much of human suffering comes from resistance to what is already unfolding. Many struggle against the direction of their own lives, and this struggle consumes energy. The current remains stronger. Eventually, movement aligns with it.
There is also the idea of mistake—of having gone the wrong way. Yet a river does not have a wrong direction. If something has occurred, it belongs to the movement. It is part of the unfolding, not an error outside of it.
Sometimes it is enough to trust that movement and allow it to carry you.
For me and my friends, that river was the Hudson River. We spent long hours along its banks. I could watch its current without interruption, letting perception settle into its rhythm.
A river never felt inanimate. There is always motion, tension, release. The surface shifts, the depth moves unseen. It feels like a living presence. I have stood by many rivers and always felt the same pull. Over time, something simple became clear. Watching a river long enough reveals how life moves.
I spent time near waterfalls as well. Leaving the scale of the city, I would sit beside falling water and observe. Gradually, most concerns lost their weight.
No matter what happens, the water continues.
A waterfall carries a direct message: the flow does not stop.
This is not passivity. It is not withdrawal from action. It is the absence of constant control. A person stops interfering with every movement and allows life to unfold.
Not outside of it, but within it. Because life never stops flowing.

